Sometimes, through my tears,
I see a circumstance from my narrow, finite point
of view
And immediately I judge it as a bad thing –
a tragedy even.
Something that cannot be His Will.
"How could this terrible thing possibly be
in His Plan?"
But I know the Eternal Father above has a
Plan.
A Plan he devised and laid before the foundation
of eternity.
Perfect
Inscrutable
Holy.
A Plan for my life.
He knows me better than I know myself
–
He knows that to heal, I need the junk and debris
to be removed from my life.
This is painful and never anything I would chose,
but
He knows that sometimes I hold so tightly to the
things around me
That He must, like the Father that He is, pry my
tightly clasped fingers
And remove that which I am holding onto, and trusting
in, instead of Him.
He knows that only then can I open my hand and
heart
to accept that which He has planned for my life
-
That which will truly bring me
fulfillment.
So who am I to question the Omnipotent and Omniscient
Creator of the Universe -
The Father who spared not his own Son so that he
could draw
All of Fallen mankind unto Himself?
Am I wiser than the Most Wise - The Ancient of
Days?
No.
What He has planned for each of us
Is far better than anything we could possibly plan
or dream for ourselves.
What a loving and caring Father we
have!
A Father who cares –
Not only about the big things in our
lives,
But the smallest unspoken desires of the
heart!
I must let go and trust in God to renew my
soul,
Give me the strength, courage and
patience
To undergo the changes and trials necessary to make
me the person I need to be.
And to let go of my will and submit myself
to His Will.
To relinquish my timetable and embrace his Perfect
timing.
Only then can I truly appreciate His
Blessings,
Achieve my full potential as one made in His
Image,
And find true happiness.
--Jennifer Brooke Martin
September 15, 1998